Redirected Rebel

scared vs sobered...

2007-07-26T23:07:00.000-04:00

my mom had a stroke on tues night. thanks be to God, she is fine now and the docs say there was no damage from it.
looking back on that experience is pretty tough. to be honest, after everyone left that night and i was alone again, i realized that i was scared "poo"less. i had seen the look, the emts and paramedics and first responders and all that stuff, i'd watched em put her walk out and get on the gurney and them drive her off...and now i was alone and it all sank in. not a single goofy or stupid thing was going through my head to say. i couldn't think of anything to make me laugh. nothing seemed fun. there was no light in my eyes. as i lay there trying to get some sleep for the day ahead, it hit me. its so fast, so unpredictable....so final. she could've been gone for good that night. or it could have been my dad. or my bro. or somebody else i cared about. she was able to walk and talk somewhat shortly after it happened, but it could have been final. or she could've been parylized. or unable to speak. or something else. she was lucky. we all were lucky. God's plan only entailed what happened, and for that i'm very thankful.
to be honest, "why?" never crossed my mind. maybe it was just cause i was in shock. or because i knew i wouldn't be able to figure it out. my dreams last night deff expressed how i have felt for the last 2 days. i'm just glad taht she's gonna be ok, and that God has something in this. i don't know what it is, and i'm not scrutinizing everything trying to find what it is. i know when He's ready for me to see it, i'll see it.

oh...and the next time i see some kid or teenager backtalk their mother...i'm gonna smack the fire outa them. you only get one mom. and she's worth way more than you'll ever know.

fog

2007-07-25T00:31:00.000-04:00

on my way home from some more good time tonight, i had the great chance to be able to drive through some fog. i love fog. i don't know why, but i have always liked it. something about driving through it and seeing the layers is just really kewl. you can see and then all is white. its really kewl when you get up and you can hardly see anything. and then the sun comes up and burns through it. or youre on the water, like a lake or something. and you're canoe seems to be just floating in a haze cause there's a layer of fog on the water. (now don't everybody be a smart-face and say well duh you're floating on the water...shuddup.)you can see your chest cause you've got some stupid life jacket on, but then everything kinda fades into a haze (caused but nature, not reefer).
another thing that's kewl about fog...you don't usually find it in the city. at least, nothing like out in the country. (the city sux hard core - you can't enjoy nature at all) out in the boonies, you can see the fog rolling along with the landscape.
i ran out of things to say about fog. the end.

well gosh, its been a while

2007-07-23T23:26:00.000-04:00

well hi there, kids!!! did ya miss me? i was talking to nate a while back, and the issue of blogs came up. and i thought, oh crap, i have one of those. and i used to write on it all the time. i should get back into that. so i'm back...hopefully. don't get too excited about it. i'll try to come up with something worthwhile to post about once in a while. later, foos.

time for some audience feedback

2007-02-26T18:31:00.000-05:00

howdy everybody. over the weekend, i realized that i need to start figuring out what direction i want to go when i graduate from mmi. but i really have no idea which way to go with my life. i have a few ideas of my own, but i would like to hear what ya'l think i would be good at. humorous suggestions are welcome, but i kinda want some serious ideas too. i figure that if i start thinking about this now, it will help me out when i have to decide what college to go to from here. so lemme know what ya'll think. thanks a bunch.

weather

2007-02-14T11:10:00.000-05:00

on monday when i drove back to school, it was 65 degrees down here. yesterday, it was 71 and sunny. today....it is 32 and snowy. i wish it would've stayd at 71. oh well.
for those of you who still read this, think back to they days of my spring airsoft guns. those were the days...shooting people at school, on soccer trips, on wrestling trips, my bro when he sat unarmed in his room, the cats (just kidding mom...kind of), shooting mr lambeth before school (he never had a clue), and of course, the best, shooting jared. well, those days go on, but i have since upgraded my method of weapon. i recently obtained a gas airsoft pistol. it is so kewl. 30 rounds of un-interupted raw power (that can easily be turned into raw pain) is now within my fist of fury. hahahahahahah!!!!! die, underlings!! i forsee some barracks raids happening this weekend...at least, that's what the forecast calls for.

combatives and good ol' grillin

2007-01-27T13:44:00.000-05:00

yesterday i did jujitsu (i probly spelled tha wrong) with some guys in my prayer group for about 3 hours. lemme tell ya, that is a work out. but it was so much fun. i did some butt kicking and got my butt kicked about as many times. its pretty rough stuff. i passed out once...that was awesome. it was only for a couple of seconds, but coming back in was so kewl. and i beat the biggest guy out there a couple of times. (yes, he's bigger than me). there was one move that i used a lot and it turned out to be a prettygood submission move. i used it so much that they said they were gonna start calling it the prelock. it was fun though. my jaw is still feeling some of the effects of a few of the moves put on me. feels a little big like i got hit with a sledge hammer...but its a good feeling. i started to get the hang on some of the positions and moves by the end of the 3 hours. i'll deffinately go back again.
then, in the evening, we grilled a bunch of deer burgers. man they were good. i can't even discribe how good they were. big thick burgers with lots of flavor and juice and so yummy. and we're gonna do it again toniht. just hope they don't make me fat. and then i get to go to church tomorrow. what a great weekend. it really couldn't get much better.

have you ever.....

2007-01-15T00:15:00.000-05:00

have you ever met someone that you could tell wanted help, or friends, or acceptance?
have you ever felt like God wanted you to be the person to give them what they are looking for?
have you ever had to leave that person for a while? and when you come back, you realize that they made some bad choices?
have you ever felt like if you were there, maybe you could've stopped them from doing whatever it was that they did?
have you ever been bitter cause you weren't there to try to help?
have you ever watched other people give up on that person, even though they said they cared and wanted to help?
have you ever wondered why you were the only one left caring?
have you ever felt helpless while you watch things go from bad to worse? but you can't be there anymore to try to help?
have you ever felt the sorrow of loosing contact with that person? and wondering what is happening with them now?
have you ever felt anger when you come back and say something about her, and someone cracks a joke about her, or says something rude or stupid?
have you ever felt the joy of getting back in contact with her?
have you ever felt like maybe you've been given another chance with her while you talk for a few hours?
have you ever realized that she still doesn't have Jesus Christ in her life yet?
have you ever realized that if she dies, she will go to hell?
have you ever thought that maybe you could be the one to show her the way? to help her realize the truth?
have you ever thought about the celebration that takes place in Heaven everytime a new person decides to accept the Jesus Christ's atoning blood to wash away their sins? when they decide to surrender their life to God to do whatever He wills with it?
have you ever cried because you wanted so much for her to be the one that they celebrate about in Heaven?
have you ever prayed frevently that she would accept Christ?
have you ever prayed fervently that if at all possible, you would be there when she finally accepts Christ?
have you ever.....

next on the list...

2007-01-08T13:49:00.000-05:00

would be my bro. don't worry, i didn't forget you. just gotta wait your turn...like when i get to the fridge before you and you wanna shove me out the way. that don't fly. but that's my only gripe.
i miss my bro. he's fun. he'll act all tough when we play counter strike, even though i always woop his booty. he likes riding motorcycles too. and he likes shooting his shotgun and blowing things up and shooting rockets at me and fun stuff like that. he makes fun of the way i dress, but i give it right back.
but he's more than just my bro. he's kinda like a spiritual mentor to me. he tells me when i'm wrong and encourages me to do what i believe is right, not just follow whatever i've been told. he encourages me to find out for myself what is right and wrong, not just to go off what i feel, or what people say, but to look it up and study the Bible for my answers. which is kewl. not many people give that kind of advice. they just say to do what feels right. which is why my bro is kewl. and why i miss him.

all righty now...

2007-01-04T08:28:00.000-05:00

so as to keep my feeble and boring blog alive, i'm going to start posting small snippets of things i miss from back home. hope you find them interesting. or something.

i miss my mommy. not in a "waaaahhh i wanna go home i miss my mommy" way, but like a "my mom is kewl and i like spending time with her and i miss her" kind of way. if that makes any sense. she's funny, she laughs when i try to be funny, and she loves me (which is always a plus). and she cooks very yummy food. and i guess i miss her somewhat just cause she'd my mommy.

i miss my dad too. we've had some good talks together over the past 4 months. he's done a lot to help me stay here and that means a lot to me. i enjoy sitting and talking with both of my parents and i don't get to do that while i'm here. he also helped me find a really nice car that i know i wouldn't have found without his help.

well, that's all for now, folks.

2006-12-25T10:42:00.000-05:00

Merry Christmas, Boys and Girls!!!! hope you all were good so ya can get lots of loot. hehehe.

"peace"...on earth, and goodwill to all men. - now that's the right way to say "peace".

home agian, home agian, rig a jig jig.

2006-12-13T16:26:00.001-05:00

well, i don't know much what that means, but i am home now. and i took a nap so i have some energy..hahah, i'm bouncing off the walls agian..and that's the second song i've quoted and i'll try to stop. so lets see, if ya wanna party, lemme know. if you have an airsoft gun let me know too. cuase i wanna get a crew of motley persons to go shoot up the block or something. so yeah, catch ya later.

merry christmas. and if anybody is offended by that, lemme know...i'll respect the he77 out of ya..with a strong right hook.

formation freeze out

2006-12-08T08:31:00.000-05:00

ok, so the only thing left that i hate about marion is the formations. i've gotten over eveything else and moved on, but i still hate the formations. like today, for instance. we had formation - its 19* outside. and we stand there in our uniforms. and freeze. my nose turned into a dripping water faucett. my ears froze to little pieces of ice. i had to thaw my hands underneath my lamp. but thank goodness for ramen. its helping me warm up, and its way better than the crud from the chow hall. i just need some tobasco sauce.....

i don't like bus rides

2006-11-27T13:52:00.000-05:00

lets see...10 hours by car, or let the greyhound peoples mess up the schedule and it will take 17 hours. you decide.
but other than that my break totally rocked. i got to see my guys come back from marine basic and buds. those three are way so much more man than a lot of other guys i know. it was kewl to see them agian. got to go to wrestling practise and show off for some of the little tykes. wrestle-ball was a blast. got to ride my motorbike as pastor king calls it. got to see him too. being home was kinda weird. i used to hate high school and everything so much. i kind of saw why i hated it cuase i got to see it from the outside looking in, but i kinda miss it now. i guess it wasn't so bad after all. the older i get i'm realizing that the the things i dislike in life can just as easily be ignored as they can be hated, but ignoring them is a much better way to deal with it. i got to see allie a lot. it was nice to see her after being away for 3 months. it was nice to see all the friends i got to see. maybe indiana isn't such a bad state. i have a lot of friends there. i got to shoot bottle rockets and roman candles....and i'll stop there. even got to play airsoft some. at christmas i wanna get a bunch of guys to play somewhere...maybe like school...that would be so much fun. hope i'll get to ride some over christmas break. we'll see. i doubt it. best of all i'll get to see my parents over christmas break. my mom is the best cook ever and she's a lot of fun to talk to. and my dad, as goofy and weird as he can be sometimes, really has great advice. he can see my side but he also see's the big picture as well. he tries to help me make the best decision over the long run, not what is easiest for now. and then there's my bro...a kewl guy who is a great friend to me and to a lot of other people. he's a great example, but he can be a lot of fun too. (like with bottle rockets and roman candles) and when all 4 of us get together, its a blast. i never really took the time to think about my family and what i love about them, but the 17 hour bus trip kinda gave a few spare moments to cogitate on such things. i can't wait for christmas break, but this time its for a diff reason. for thanksgiving break i wanted to jsut get out of here. and i did and i enjoyed myself. but now i want break to come so i can spend time with the people i care about. cause that's what holidays are really all about. its not to get off work or out of school - its to be with those you love. that's the way to have a good holiday.

yo

2006-11-18T12:09:00.000-05:00

dear lord, it is good to be home agian. there truly is no place like home. the whole bus ride home, i was singing, "momma, momma i'm coming home...."

well, we all knew i'd do it eventually....

2006-11-08T21:21:00.000-05:00

john 4:34

2006-11-07T00:07:00.000-05:00

"Jesus said unto them, 'My meat is to do the will of Him who sent me, to finish His work.'"

i saw this verse during a service i went to on sunday night. i kinda caught my eye cause i was hungry. but then it sunk it:
to do the will of Him who sent me.
that should be what drives me on. what sustains me. i shouldn't need the support of other people or good friends or recognition for what i do. if i'm doing what's right, that should be all i need. i have found a lot of encouragement in that. i hope you can too.

poo on ihop

2006-10-30T08:45:00.000-05:00

after we got done wrestling this weekend, we went out to go get some food since most of us hadn't eaten the whole day. someone had the bright idea to go to an ihop. stupid idea. when we got there, the chinese female manager failed to tell us that there was only one cook working. so all 27 of us got to sit and wait for an hour and a half before they started bringing food out. and after 2 hours, we still didn't have all our food yet. so coach decided that we should leave and go somewhere else. except we had been there so long that no where else was open. so we ended up banging on the drive through window of a wendys, begging for food. and we'll probly get to do the whole thing over agian this weekend since we are taking a very long bus ride to USF for another meet. yay.

they fit now...

2006-10-23T08:36:00.000-04:00

back home, i had a pair of jeans that were really kewl and they looked pretty kewl. they were kinda like the blue-sih green stonewash color. i liked em a lot...except they used to be kinda tight on my buxom bottom. i asked my mom to brign em down for parents weekend when they came. and she did. and they fit really well now. i can actually sag em if i want to. so the ol waistline is decreasing. they also brought me a bunch of food and a totally aweosme box from my gf that was also full of food. the hard part will be to not devour it all this week cause we ahve a wrestling match and i gotta make weight. bummer...but i'm sure the food will help me stay alive here a bit better.

ho-dee dee

2006-10-18T15:31:00.000-04:00

ok, for those of you who knew me well enough to remember me, think back to those times where i was bouncing off the walls and stuff. that's the way i am right now. i was sitting in class and i realized i only have to wait 2 days til my parents get here. i haven't seen them since i came down here. so i'm a little bit excited. cause....after today, i only have 5 classes till i'm done for the week and then i can leave and go hang out wiht my parents. and i'll actually get to leave campus for more tahn an hour. and i'll get to wear civilian clothes, not our *aqovih* uniforms. (don't aske me what that word means...i honestly don't know - my fingers made it up). so yeah i'm happy. and then after that i have...4 more weeks of school and then i come home for a week and turkey day, as my bio prof likes to call it. and then after that...3 1/2 weeks til christmas..witha birthday somewhere in there...i think....and i think i get somewhere around 3 weeks for christmas. i guess my bio prof was right...i really didn't realize how close to being done with this semester i really am. hooah. and i got a letter from jared today. hooah x 2.

the weather

2006-10-16T08:49:00.000-04:00

today is the first day we've had not so nice weather. for breakfast formation, it was rather chilly with a stiff cold breeze blowing on us. and ti was sprinkling..not enough to cancle the formation, but enough to make us all shiver and our ears hurt. but from what i'm hearing from those of you back home, its been like that for the last month. hahaha. i laugh at ye. and i shall just chilax in my room and stay warm in my mmi campus jacket.

2006-10-14T11:48:00.000-04:00

it is believed that chuck norris's tears can cure cancer.

....too bad chuck norris doesn't cry.

wow he's hurt

2006-10-11T20:24:00.000-04:00

not sure if i mentioned this in an earlier post, but a couple of weeks ago, a guy got hurt in wrestling practise. i went to the er with him. they told him that he had dislocated his shoulder, but it was fine cause it had gone back in....they was wrong. he went to a couple other doctors a week later cause it was still hurting like crazy. come to find out, he tore all the tendons and ligaments in his shoulder. yeah. that's pretty ouchy wowy. so he's missed a week and a half of school. and he's gotten no sleep. he told me tha he just walks around his living room or outside at night cause he can't get comfortable enough to sleep. man...he got screwed over pretty good. makes me feel bad for the poor guy.

My Tears

2006-10-05T23:22:00.000-04:00

the tears we shed in silence are the ones that hurt the most
cause people fail to see how much we hurt and all that is lost
we are all alone fighting against the world
and seeing hte lives of friends unfurled
as we watch what they do, we see the crap ahead
that could be missed if they change their stead
but they don't hear crys for them to stear clear
and when they crumble, we shed our silent tear
even though they chose their road, we still hurt inside
cause the choice they made caused a part of them to die
and each step they take toward the crud they see
is another step to all of us saying "rest in peace"
we know they are wrong and they say they do too
but they keep moving forward to their own impending doom
but what hurts the most that they keep walking on
saying they know what's right but they want what's wrong
and we know we'd choose for them if only we were able
but its a road they must walk and learn to be stable
its their life and they must make their own choices
and choose who and what to live for by their lives and their voices
but the tears will still roll down my weathered cheek
when they choose the wrong and fall becuase they are weak
because before God i still care about these souls
and i want to see them live a life that's full
and no matter the pain i feel inside i will still cry
until God can make things right.....

and He will....

in His time.

a few words of comfort in some hard times

2006-10-04T15:43:00.000-04:00

Today i was sitting in my room writing down some verses in a journal that a special somebody gave me. as i wrote i was listening to some music by the newsboys. then the song "when the tears fall" came on. it almost made me cry. it spoke to me right away. its amazing how something as simple as a song can be so encourging when you are down. so i thought i'd share the lyrics with ya'll. hope they mean as much to you as they do to me.

I've had questions
Without answers?
I’ve known sorrow
I have known pain
But there’s one thing
That I’ll cling to
You are faithful
Jesus you’re true
When hope is lost
I’ll call You Savior
When pain surrounds
I’ll call You healer
When silence falls
You’ll be the song within my heart
In the lone hour
Of my sorrow
Through the darkest night of my soul
You surround me
And sustain me
My defender for ever more
When hope is lost
I’ll call You Savior
When pain surrounds
I’ll call You healer
When silence falls
You’ll be the song within my heart
And I will praise you
I will praise you
When the tears fall
Still I will sing to you
And I will praise you
Jesus praise you
Through the suffering
Still I will sing
When hope is lost
I’ll call You Savior
When pain surrounds
I’ll call You healer
When silence falls
You’ll be the song within my heart
Oh You’re so good to me
You’ve always been good to me
So trustworthy
When hope is lost
I’ll call You Savior
When pain surrounds
I’ll call You healer
When silence falls
You’ll be the song within my heart
And I will praise you
I will praise you
When the tears fall
Still I will sing to you
And I will praise you
Jesus praise you
Through the suffering
Still I will sing
How faithful and true
You sustain me through and through
You are hope and truth
You’re my spring of living water
You’re my spring of living water
In the lone hour You are there
Lord in my sorrow You are there
You are my healer

dip is bad....

2006-10-04T12:10:00.000-04:00

and so i eat copious (that means excessive amounts) of sunflower seeds. 75% of the guys in my barracks dip. not me. i eat sunflower seeds all the time. they are really yummy. they replace the salt that i sweat out. they are a good source of protien. and they are also a great munchy. so if you need a snakc, get some sunflower seeds. and don't dip.

pop rocks

2006-09-28T21:31:00.002-04:00

i went off campus and saw a little bit of the world tonight. just Bargain Town and the local Kwik mart. but during our trip, me and simpson got some pop rocks. i'd forgottne how kewl they really are. so for those of you who don't know how kewl they are,,,,.........they are so kewl. as we were eating them back in the barracks, one of the other guys came by and asked us what we were eating. i guess he had never had pop rocks before. hehehe. so we gave him some. he wasn't expecting what they do to you. he had the funniest look on his face and made some pretty funky sounds too. good times, good times...
so, being my usual ADD self, i started to think: if a people will make a funny face and funny noises when given pop rocks, what would a cat do? or a duck? or a chiwawa? or a gecko? i'll have to find out some day. that could be my quest in life. what would a fish do? or a gerbil? or a spider monkey?

valet parking

2006-09-18T11:23:00.000-04:00

yup. that's right. i got to do valet parking for some rich guys party. it was fun. got to drive some nice cars....a charger, a lexus, a jaguar...and lots of suvs. i was just chil-axing in the barracks on sat night and about 20:30 (that's 8:30 for all ya civi's) my captian came through and told me and 2 other guys to get our uniforms on. we're all like oh crud, what did we do now? then we all go get in his car and he takes us to this big ol' southern house. there's all these people in tuxs and suits. so we got to drive peoples cars around. we din't get paid though. and we weresn't allowed to accept tips. people were trying to give us 10s and 20s, but we weren't allowed to take it. but we might get merrits or something. he had some good times too. there were a coupld lts and captians there. the loosened up and didn't make us do all the regular yes sir no sirs stuff. it was a good time. and then i got to sleep in til 9 the next mornign since we didn't get back til about 01:30. there is also a possiblity i'll get to go and be an usher at the taladega race. it pays $54 a day and its 3 days long....so i really wanna go. but now i have to be responsible and go to class. catch ya'll later.

more about marion stuff...

2006-09-14T00:32:00.000-04:00

Well, there's my bed. its SOP perfect (standard operating procedure). hooah. who'd a thunk i'd have a bed that neat? and here is me and dempsey, my roomate. we are playing reverse roles with our shirt colors. hehehe. if you don't get it, nevermind. i have pink eye now. it is not fun. but i get to skip class. i just hope i don't get behind. i don't think i will. my classes aren't that hard.
and yes i shaved my head. like 2 days ago. and its already growing back really thick just like it always was. fri night we have our cresting test. if we pass it we get crested on sat morning. and then we have a big party in the barracks for the guys who aren't leaving. yeah. it's gonna be crazy. last sun we went diving...with a 45 lb wieght. it was prettyfun. then we played dodgeball in the pool. and i just got hit with a wave of tiredness. so i'm gonna hit the sack. catch ya'll later.

In leu of 9-11...

2006-09-11T00:34:00.000-04:00

Then I saw a new heaven and a new earth; for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, the the sea was no more.
And I saw the Holy City, the new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride adorned for her husband....
And the city had no need of sun or moon to shine on it, for the glory of God is its light, and its lamp is the Lamb.
The nations will walk by its light, and the kings of the earth will bring their glory into it.
And I heard a loud voice form the throne saying, "See, the home of god is among mortals. HE will dwell with them as thier God; they will be His peoples, and God himself will be with theim; He will wipe away every tear from their eyes. Death will be no more, mourning and crying and pain will be no more, for the first things have passed away."
And the one who was seated on the throne said, "See, I am making all things new."
Then He said to me, "It is done. I am the Alpha and the Omega, the beginning and the end."
The one who testifies to these things says, "Surely I am coming soon."

There is hope. There is a future. And there are good things ahead. On this day of sad remembrances, let us look forward to the reinstatement of a perfect world. It is coming.

Come, Lord JESUS!!!

i'm going to die....

2006-09-08T11:48:00.000-04:00

yes its true. yay for me. right outside our door is this huge chunk of wall infected by mold. and its going to kill me. well, maybe not...but it almost did. i woke up this morning and my throat had practically close while i was asleep. it hurt so bad to swallow. it still hurts. adn the doc is nowhere to be found. uhg....
on a happier note, bravo company kicked butt this past weekend during GYMKAHANA. HOOAH!! we won with 230 pts...the 2nd place company had 171pts. oh yeah. we rock. and we will probly get honor company. then we get to wear these orange and black cords on our uniforms. yay. hm......what else to talk about....oh. i really like apples. i've been eating about 3-5 everyday. they are quite yummy. i got a really good one last night. so scrumpcous. ok. well i must go to a class now. ancient civ...its actually kinda enjoyable. i like it. so catch ya'll later.

man down....

2006-08-30T18:42:00.000-04:00

poor guy. we were in wrestling practise, and he was wrestling. but i guess someone did a throw or something and he somehow dislocated his elbow. for the 3rd time. so now he has to leave and go get orthopedic surgery. and he was actually one of the kewl guys. he was my battle buddy. but he might come back second semester.

if you couldn't guess, i can't think of anything to write about. maybe my creative spark got damaged in practise. i'll try to think up something more interesting to write about.

the first week or so...

2006-08-27T16:38:00.000-04:00

well its going ok so far. i got my clss schedule. its not bad. i mostly have afternoons off. so i work out and go to wrestling practise. last we i ended up running over 5 miles. needless to say, my legs really hurt. bad. i walked like a cowboy. but now i don't hurt so bad. i probly wiil in anohter couple of days. i've been coughing a lot and have had a stuffed nose for the last week. but i think its getting better. i hope so. there is a all female college like 2 blocks away. its called judson. somehow, marion and them worked something out. only problem is, this place is known for having fat girls. yeah. and last night we had a big dinner thing with them. but fortunately, there are way more guys than girls. so i got lucky. but i guess we have to go do something with them agian today. but i'm gonna have some fun first. me and a couple guys are gonna go work out and swim. a couple of nights ago, we went and litterd anothyer barracks with rottne pickles and tomatoes. it was fun. and we have more planned. so i'll let ya'll know an stuff. catch ya later.

a new beginning

2006-08-20T14:39:00.000-04:00

well it wasn't what i expected. when i got down here, i found out that new cadets have to go through a 4 week initiation phase. oh boy. we get yelled at, smoked (they make us do pt and crap like that) and other crazy stuff. they get all mad about stuff and get in our faces and yell. its kinda hard not to laugh at them. they're not allowed to touch us or anything so they can't really do anything. just yell. and sometimes they get so mad they can't even talk right. then you just wanna laugh in their face. we have to learn a bunch of stuff from our manual. last night was fun. we had wrestling practise. just from that first time i can tell that this year i'm gonna be a totally diff wrestler when these coaches get down with me. they're really cool. my room mate isn't too big on em, but that's ok. hes a big guy, 6'5" 300lb black guy. he's fun. after practise, we went back to barracks and had a platoon war. 1stpltn (they're on the first floor) had to make a wall with their matresses. we (2nd pltn - second floor) had to break it down and get over it. we won 2 of the 3 rounds. it was awesome. sorta like a prison right. we were all chanting and yelling and stuff. we couldn't talk after it. it was fun. well i need to get going. hope you all are enjoying getting fat and being lazy. none of that for me. enjoy it for me. catch y'all later.

i must say, i was quite disappointed......

2006-08-16T23:44:00.000-04:00

recently there has been a small hubub about my good friend andy having a girlfriend. which i must say i am excedingly pleased for him, and i think she is probly one of the nicest girls around if she has caught andy' eye.
however, some things have been said that need not be said. and as i think about it, other things have been said about other guys. and so i am going to use the power of the pen (via internet pen, of course) to confront this issu. because frankly, i has made me quite upset. and not only me, but other guys as well.
for starters, i would like to wonder out loud just what is with some of the girls i know, mainly regarding their sheer hypocrasy. when they see a guy being nice to a pretty girl, many times they say "well its just cause she's pretty". in some cases that might be. but they autoatically assume this. however, when a guy is a jerk to a girl who is not pretty, they attribute it to how she looks, not what kind of a guy he is. this also is wrong.
yet so many times we see the girls do the exact same thing. if a new guy is at school, he is swarmed becuase the girls want the attention. but if a guy tries to reach out to a new girl, hes just trying to be cool and show off.
you girls don't make any sense.
for the sake of illustration, i am going to use andy as an example since he has already been publicly mocked and the like by certain girls.
andy (for those of your who were too bigoted and two-faced to actually get to know him) is a great guy. he is one of few guys who will treat a lady like a lady, not matter how pretty she is or how ugly she is. (i won't go into the specifactions of the diff between a lady and a girl, cause some of you be too discouraged). he is not proud. he is funny and goofy when the occasion calls for it. and he can be quite serious and down-to-earth when needed. he is very inteligent. he is athletic. he can be a very strong spiritual leader. he knows when to say something and when to be quiet (something a few people who commented about him could learn a bit about) and he's a great guy to room with when you're in d.c. he knows when a joke is funny and when its not. he knows when something is going too far. and he knows his own limitations.
so what i wanna know is why are you girls so hard on him? what is the real reason you treat him like crap? would any one care to tell me? because frankly i am very upset about the way you have slighted him and how you ignored him the whole time he was at faith. and some of you have some appologizing to do the next time you see him. there are a few girls who actually befriended him, and i'd like to thank meg and adrienne for that. you 2 were very nice to him. as for others of you...i won't put your names on here but you know who you are. and if i made you mad by this, i don't really care. you need to hear this:

stop being 2-faced back-stabbing girls and start treating people with some respect. maybe if you reserve some judgement on these guys, you might actually find a friend here or there.

and one more thing....

about there really being a god because andy found a girlfriend, the same thing could be very well said of you...but wait, you don't have a boyfriend, do you? so instead of bashing him, why not hold your tongue and work on improving yourself? if would help your chances out a lot more than just making fun of a guy who is actually worth dating.

i got new spectacles

2006-08-08T19:35:00.000-04:00

here i be with them on me.

hahaha...i rimed.

and i can't spell.

so what.

My buddy nate

2006-08-07T21:59:00.000-04:00

tonight i went out and had dinner with my buddy nate hornbrook. we went to ihop. i got a philey steak cheeseburger thingy. it was yummy. but the food isn't what this is about. it was about the conversations we had. we talked for about 2 1/2 hours. it was very thought provoking. he's a good guy. i wish i would've spent more time getting to know him this year. he sees everything with an open mind and he wants to learn. he's not afraid to discuss what he believes even thought its not always the popular belief. he's a missionary kid...but he's not a nerd or annoying like most other mk's are thought of as being. he's really smart and perceptive. he'd be a great guy to have as a roommate. he's a great listener and he loves to talk to people. and he comes up with some pretty good thoughts. i'm gonna try to keep in close contact with him. i'm glad he's my buddy.

Matt 5:2-3

2006-08-02T23:45:00.000-04:00

And He opened his mouth and taugh them, saying,
Blessed are the poor in spirit: for thiers is the kindgom of heaven.

KEY WORDS
blessed (mak-ar'-ee-os - greek root pronunciation) to pronounce on to be fortunate, well off, happy.
poor (pto-khos') a beggar, a pauper, denoting absolute or public mendicancy (the condition or practise of being a beggar)
spirit (pnyoo'-mah) the rational soul, vital principle, mental disposition
Kingdom of heaven (oo'-ran-os') the abode of God, by implication happiness, power, eternity

well, if that doesn't get ya fired up....wow. not only will we be fortunate, well off, and happy if we are poor in spirit (which i have heard described as being very similar to meekness, in that our view of self is not proud, but one of thankful submission in awe of God's great power and love for us despite our complete unworthyness), but we will gain the kingdom of God. kewl huh? oh, but it is so much more than that. its as if we are granted a unlimited pass into the pressence of God, a presence so powerful that it cuased moses to glow for days after he had witnessed it. not only that, but it was so radiant that the people knew he had seen part of God. and we will be given that....not just a glimpse...but the whole thing. we will see our Maker face to face. and then we will bow down, casting our crowns (which hopefully we have been faithful to earn them) at His feet and crying 'HOLY, HOLY, HOLY ARE YOU LORD!!" day and night.....how awesome would that be? to stand with all those who have gone before us, the spiritual leaders and men/women of God from the beginning of time....if that doesn't get ya fired up.....

religious? or just a rebel?

2006-08-02T17:29:00.000-04:00

am i really religious? or am i just an actor in life who goes with the flow like everybody else? am i a person who is driven by convictions, or carnality (fleshly desires)? do i do what's right because i want to, or cause i know to? do i say the right things because i believe them or because i burp it back up? why am i me? what makes me who i am? what is the one thing that defines me as me? am i a match for myself, or am i on fire for God? am i a rock of confessions that Christ can use to build His church, or am i a coward who denies Him when things get rough? what is it with me.......

what about you?

goodbye, old yeller

2006-07-31T21:58:00.000-04:00

today was a sad day. we took our dog to the vet and had her put to sleep. she was 10 and she could barely walk anymore. it was sad, but it was time to do it before life became too hard for her. as much of a pain in the butt that dog could be, i'm really gonna miss her. i grew up with that dog. she was almost like a constant companion. we didn't always get along, but we had some special moments. i'm the one that taught her to do tricks. nothing special, but the ones that are kinda fun. she liked to knock me over when we would run around in the yard. she also loved to chase us around the kitchen or the basement. and when she would catch us, she would bite our ankles to let us know she caught us. its kinda funny to think back about all the things that we used to do together and all of the other memories we have with each other. it almost make me cry to think that she's gone. but i know its better than for her to be in pain. i hope there's a doggie heaven just for her. maybe she'd be able to run and play again. maybe she could actually catch a rabbit instead of just chasing after them. maybe she could.......i hope so. dogs really are mans best friends.

no more, the stupidity and idiocy is over!

2006-07-28T10:48:00.000-04:00

yes folks, its true. we are now closed for the season. and now i don't have to put up with the stupid people all day long. i tell ya, between the cranky women, mothers with their bratty children, and the completely rude and inconsiderate (not to mention terrible driving) orientals, i see why people just snap sometimes. so now that we are closed and there is a big honkin sign on the front of the red shed (which you can't miss, no matter how stupid you are) that clearly spells out that we are "closed for the season", i kinda almost want someone to come down the lane. go ahead. open the gate and drive past the sign. hehehehe.....i'll be waiting for you. mwahh hah hah hah ha haaaaaaa!!!!

4x4s and shotguns

2006-07-22T23:26:00.000-04:00

well i have deffinately had an eventful day. got up and ran (as is my daily schedule) and then work on the family farm. after that, jared and i decided we wanted to improve our marksmanship shills in the area of the magnificent shotgun. but wait - oh no! i was out of ammo. eh, no problemo. wally world was the answer to the problem. cept there weren't not salesperson to hand me the box of shells that i wanted which was placed behind the counter. after contemplating jumping the counter for a few minutes and realizing the cameras...yeah. jared saw one of the wonderful ww worker persons and called em over. after making our perchase (which by the way a case of shells costs less than puttin half a tank of gas in my truck), we headed out. made a quick stop at the newberry residence to deliver an old promise, which was met with much glee by both the young lads who recieved new airsoft guns and ammo, but also the father of the aforementioned lads. in fact he seemed to possibly be more excited than his sons. and yes, he was the first one to shoot one of the sons. it was quite funny. and he wants to play airsoft with us. hehehe. that was funny. anyway, we left after much discourse about propper shooting for the youngsters. then we came home and ate kfc. good stuff. especially before going out to shoot the pretty birdies. i must confess, i was quite impressed with how well jared did with the shotgun. for having shot as little as he clames to have, he did quite well. betwixt the twain of us, we shot something like 20 birds. i shot more, but he shot the biggest one. twas quite an enjoyable afternoon.
then, this evening, allie and i had planned to go to her house and enjoy a movie (i believe "saw" was on the playlist). but then her pa wasn't around when she got off work, so we couldn't do that. but then we found out that he was at a place in the woods. with 4x4s. and we could go there instead. so i was like, "well i have to check my agenda...LETS GO!!!!" i called my wonderful parents and they graciously allowed me to change my plans for the evening. so we headed out there and then let the tires meet the turf. good stuff. someone once told me that riding 4x4s was all balls and no brains. i don't quite agree with that statement, but i can see how one could come to such a conclusion. its deffinately a rush. and let it be known here and now - i have the awesomest girlfriend! not only did she trust me enough to ride with me, she didn't get mad at me when i intentionaly hit the big mud puddles and got her all muddy, and she didn't freak out at my sporadicly erratic driving. wow. wow. wow. it was so much fun. i could do that all day long.

and i didn't even hurt myself or anything or anybody else. yay for me!!!!

shaggy.....vs.....flat top

2006-07-15T23:04:00.000-04:00

.....or......

note - the semi-stoned look has nothing to do with anything i partook of or brought back from brazil or columbia. it is due to a lack of sleep and from going swimming. for those of you that were wondering.

ummm.....

2006-07-15T00:48:00.000-04:00

oh yeah - i'm back.

Crazy Crabs Rule!!!

2006-06-26T00:12:00.000-04:00

i helped teach vbs this past week. the smite team was given charge over the sixth grade. let me tell ya, there were some interesting times this week. some good and some bad. it was deffinatley never dull. btwn moody girls, storms putting holes in the inflatable obstacle course, getting kids wet, woody (pw, our main man) getting sick the first night, weird snacks, our team winning by 300,000 pts, and 2 girls giving there life to the Lord (can i get an amen?), it was a packed week. by fri we were all wasted. so i thought, why not make it even better? rock star energy drink it some pretty good stuff. that stuff will do dang near anything. and boy did it work. i was wired all night....until about 11:00 when i had to drive home. but i made it and i got to check up on some rest this weekend.
i also had some trouble with my laptop. i guess multiple anti-virus systems is a bad thing. they don't play well together. hence my compy wouldn't recieve emails in a timely manner, it wouldn't play my music, it wouldn't even start up in a timely manner. but when i got it i bought some sort of i don't know what it is but i get free work done on the laptop and other good stuff like that. so its fixifated. and now i can get back to kicking my bro's hinderparts on counter strike, which if you don't have the game you should deffinately get it. especially if you like first person shooters. counter strike is the best rated game out there for 1st p s. and you can play your friends and siblings and whoever else you wanna play. it is great fun.
well, i leave for brazil on tues. and no, i'm not bringing back an aligator or a piranha or a python or anything crazy like that for people so don't ask me to. i don't even know if i'll get anything while i'm down there. i probly will. maybe a brazil jersey. i don't know. i'll just have to see what they have. oh...we're all getting hammocks to sleep in during the duration of our stay. so i'll be bringing that back. i'm kinda thinking about doing something crazy with my hair while i'm down there. i mean, hey - i'll have to cut if off when i go to college anyway. i might as well have some fun with it.
and lastly, i just got done beating starfox (n64). it was great fun. they need to make it for pc. the game was made in 97, but it still kicks butt. you have to laugh when you play it...the sounds are so pathetic. like when one of your wingpersons dies, they make this really pathetic wail about dying. its kinda funny. but i beat it. yay. death to andross. i kick his pattooty. or something.
i'm out. like,.....later dudes.

bells of freedom

2006-06-19T22:34:00.000-04:00

I have walked all alone
On these streets I call home
Streets of hope, streets of fear
Through the sidewalk cracks time disappears
I was lost, on my knees
On the eve of defeat
As I choked back the tears
There’s a silent scream no one could hear
So far away from everything you know is true
Something inside that makes you do what you got to do

Ring them bells, ring them loud
Let them ring here and now
Just reach out and ring the Bells of Freedom
When your world’s crashing down
Like you’re lost every round
Stand your ground
And ring the Bells of Freedom

Up the steps of the church
Through the fields and the dirt
In the dark I have seen
That the sun still shines for the one who believes
So far away
So full of doubt and needing proof
Just close your eyes and hear the sounds inside of you

Ring them bells, ring them loud
Let them ring here and now
Just reach out and ring the Bells of Freedom
When your world’s comes crashing down
Like you’ve lost every round
Stand your ground
And ring the bells of freedom

Ring them bells, ring them loud
Let them ring here and now
Just reach out and ring the Bells of Freedom
Yeah, when your world comes crashing down
Like you’ve lost every round
Stand your ground and ring the Bells of Freedom

Ring them bells, ring them loud
Let them ring here and now
Just reach out and ring the Bells of Freedom…

music is good. it is powerful. anyone who says otherwise is a fool. i like this song a lot. it kinda makes me think of some guy finally making it to the top of a mountain after a long struggle. kinda like when he gets there and throws his hand up for all to see that he's finally done it. so there's the song. bon jovi's a pretty kewl group.

Hallelujah - Philip, Craig, And Dean

2006-06-17T09:59:00.000-04:00

Your love is amazing, steady and unchanging
Your love is a mountain, firm beneath my feet
Your love is a mystery, how You gently lift me
When I am surrounded, your love carries me
[chorus]
Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah
Your love makes me sing
Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah
Your love makes me sing

Your love is surprising, I can feel it rising
All the joy that’s growing deep inside of me
And every time I see you, all Your goodness shines through
And I can feel this God song rising up in me

{chorus}

Your love makes me sing
Your love makes me sing, sing, sing
Your love makes me sing

there have been quite a few things that have happened in the last week that i really want to talk about. some of them great, some of them....kinda cruddy. but it doesn't matter what they are, they all happened because God wanted them to. and they happened for a reason. i may not know that reason, but God does and maybe someday he'll fill me in on the details. until then...life goes on. so i'll keep singing....

gaming is great fun

2006-06-12T19:02:00.000-04:00

well i started to load games on my laptop and now my bro is all about playing head to head with me on all the diff games we have. hopefully he'lll get me a joystick so i can actually play some of em. but either way i'm gonna kick is little buttooty. oh yeah. he be going down.
apologies to any who were offended by my usage of the word "pimp" as an adjective in a previous post. i did in no way intend it to be taken as the, well, the bad form of the word.

its all better

2006-06-08T23:01:00.000-04:00

i got my laptop. its pimp. like really pimp. and i bought over 8 hours of cartoons at the dollar tree. hehehehehehehehehe. got some really funny ones. like the one about the magpies and when the guy s5h64oots the the other guy and he ends up in this barrle and the magpie goes into the radio and asks "do you have a magpie in your home?" its funny. i got woody woodpecker, popeye, felix the cat, and superman. hehehehehehe. i feel like a little kid again. its fun. and i downloaded morrowind, the ultimate awesomest game in the world. it is like todally mondo. and the compy came with a bunch of weird games with it too...some are ok, but most are realy stupid. but i have morrowind and counterstrike and rebel assault II and age of empires and a rumpload of other kewl games. but now i have to get back to planing the alpha and omega campiout thingidy. later you old fogies.

i'm not happy

2006-06-07T23:04:00.000-04:00

best buy is a bunch of poo people. i bought a laptop from them, but they didn't have it in stock. so they said they would order one. and it would be ready today. well it wasn't. and now they say they lost my order....and some guy was supposed to come in and figure it out and call me. well i never got called. and i'm not happy about it. actually i'm not really mad...but if i act like i am maybe i'll get some sort of discount or something....i hope so anyway.

happy horsies

2006-06-03T12:17:00.000-04:00

well, i got an eyeful today. i went outside to do some more work on the family farm and the horses in the neighboring pasture had apparently decided to pretend they were on animal planet. so right in the middle of the pasture....yeah. you know what happened. wow...not the way i wanted to start my workday....

lightning bugs

2006-06-01T09:22:00.000-04:00

lightning bugs are cool. especially when you're driving at night and they fly into your windsheild and get smooshed and then they keep glowing for the next couple of minutes......hehehehe.....

ITS FINALLY OVER!!!!!!!

2006-05-28T10:30:00.000-04:00

son of a gun, i feel great.

yum yum spit spit

2006-05-22T19:43:00.000-04:00

well, i ate over half a bag of sunflower seeds today while i worked outside. it was actually quite fun. they were very yummy. the only problem is that now the only thing i can taste is salt. but oh well. i'm sure dinner will fix that....... i hope.........

forget your 76 trombones...

2006-05-20T21:33:00.000-04:00

whilst i was workin in the fields today, (the front field to be exact) a large group of motorcycles drove by on state road 38, which is clearly visible from the field. i decided to count them when i realized it would be a large group. a thunderous roar was created and clearly audible from 1/4 of a mile away as 77 motorcycles passed in rapid succession. as they passed, a wonderful feeling overwhelmed me to see that many bikes all together. and then it passed away as i stood there realizing that i was still in the field. i stood there and then looked at my brother as he stood there with a look of awe. he looke at me, at the field, and back at me. and then i exclaimed..."well this sux."

i feel helpless to the world...

2006-05-17T22:49:00.000-04:00

things keep happening to me and the people i care about. bad things. things we don't like. and i'm helpless. there is nothing i can do about it. it bites. i just want school to be over.

but then i think about this verse: psalm 126:5 (i think). it goes something like, "those who sow in sadness, will reap in joy and laughter."
even though things suk, this gives me hope and it is encouraging. things will get better. and that is what God says, not me. so i will be happy.

Junior/Senior pictures

2006-05-14T18:54:00.000-04:00

i gotta admit, i don't think i've ever seen him that happy before..when airsoft guns or firecrackers weren't involved. don't he look like such a stud in all that purple?

wow....dang it, she looks mighty fine.....best night of my life. she actually made the baquet fun for me. and then i got to hang out with her till 3:30. we are deffinately gonna do that again...just probly skip the banquet part and go straight to hangin out at adrienne's. that was a lot of fun.

pictures from senior trip

2006-05-13T13:50:00.000-04:00

wahooey

2006-05-13T13:35:00.000-04:00

yay. senior trip is over. it was a lot of fun. there were a lot of people on the trip. some were annoying, some weren't. some thought there should be more indians and less cheifs, so we told justin to shut up. the wilds was really good. even thought i had heard almost all of those sermons before, i think it was the first time that i actually wanted to let them impact me. and they did. i am now a better person.
dc was better than i thought it would be. the war memorials and othere monuments were a lot more astounding than i thought they would be. the museums...were boring. i almost got to go to the aquarium, but then most of the people in out group didn't wanna pay $5 to see all the kewl fishies, so i didn't get to go. i was sad so i pouted.
then last night we had the junior senior banquet. it was a lot of fun. there wasn't enough food and the room was really warm, but it was still a lot of fun.then afterwards we went and goofed off till 3 in the morning. i soundly womped andy's butt in a wrestling match. and he gave me a scratch right next to my eye. it looks ... like a scratch. for a while we made fun of adrienne, then hilary, then whoever would do something stupid enough for us to make fun of them. we started watching remember the titans, but allie and i left before it was over. it was a very fun night. i'm glad i picked the girl i did. she made the night worth it.

yay senior trip

2006-05-07T08:36:00.000-04:00

yeha. the trip is going great so far. its been a lot of fun. a lot of people made good decisions at the wilds. (myself included). so far dc hasn't been so bad. the memorials are really....touching. i almost yelled at some people not even from our group about how they were acting. but i didn't. well, a whole bunch of junior high kids just came into the lobby, and i gotta go get ready for church. i should be back home on wed between 5-7. see ya ll later.

ah hee hee hee....i am on steriodz - wooopeeeee!!!

2006-04-29T09:09:00.000-04:00

yeah, so i've been having these allergy problems and i can't stop coughing. it was kinda annoying at first, but the last half of this week it has just been getting worse. so yesterday i went to the doc and he gave me 2 diff types of steriods to take. hehehehehehe. and then i went and rode my bike "under the influence". just kidding....well i did ride my bike. but then last night while i was having a wonderful time with someone special, i noticed that while i was just sitting there, drinking a a&w cream soda, my heart was going insane. and i had also noticed it earlier in the day. so after the first movie was over, i went up and read the side effects of the steriods. yup, elevated heart rate was right up there. my dad told me to not drink any more caffine cause it probly compounded the issue. later on in the evening, i started feeling dizzy, another side effect. but all in all, i don't think its that bad, seeing as some of the other side effects are adominal cramps, black stools, loss of vision, feelings of amnesia, radical mood swings (probly only happens to girls), and something about loss of bladder control. so senior trip should prove to be quite interesting, seeing as i will be doped up the whole time. they are all either gonna think i'm hilarious or they will hate me...hehehehe.

i like no school

2006-04-27T09:35:00.000-04:00

i get the today and tomorrow off school. and tomorrow i get to go riding with pa. and maybe an evening with someone special. can it get any better than that?

2 quotes i was thinking about all day

2006-04-21T15:08:00.000-04:00

"some people are completely fake....others are way too real." were do i fit in to that?

"you can let your day continue to get worse, or you can choose to make it better." i love pastor king. he gave me the second quote. it really made me think.

senior thesis

2006-04-17T22:07:00.000-04:00

i hate it. i hate it. i hate it.

and now i'm done with it. i hope i get a good grade. or else i will just have wasted....well, a lot of time working on it. and yes, i actually did spend time researching gun control, even though my mind was already made up. gun control is stupid and for neo-nazis and bald music teachers who don't like guns. but since i'm bored, i'll give ya'll the rundown of my paper. all nine pages of it condenses to a parapragh.

criminals don't follow laws. new laws will just mean more paper work. not less crime. if they would actually punish criminals and hold them responsible.

i have a sunburn

2006-04-16T22:19:00.000-04:00

but at least it will turn into a nice bronze tan by the time we go on senior trip. and at least i have something to show for a good day's hard work. so i guess its not that bad. if i could just get to sleep without it bothering me...

why?

2006-04-09T22:11:00.000-04:00

why are the right words the ones i never say?
why is it that when i want to help i just get in the way?
why can't i wipe all those tears away?
why can't things be as good as they seemed yesterday?

why can't we see what's going to happen?
why can't we stop things that we don't want?
why can't we heal the wounds we've caused?
why can't we just all be ok?

for some reason life just has to bite
and at times it even sucks
it shows us we are human beings
and shows us not to trust luck

but still i wish that for a while
we could all live in bliss and peace
and not have to deal with this day to day crap
that takes away our ease

i wish i could reach out a helping hand
and show someone that some people care
to open up and just be a friend
and help some one by just being there

maybe if i could make one person smile
and make them forget their woes
my life would be worth it for sure
and i'd be ready when its my time to go

swearing

2006-04-08T21:42:00.000-04:00

i've never really dedicated a post to anyone, so i thought i might give it a try.
this post is dedicated to my older brother, whom i look up to and greatly admire, and who is also(in his own words) a "sexy man of God". lov ya, bro.

today i had the oppurtunity to go to a marine corpes pollee funtion where they did some interesting activities and physical workouts and the like. they also had a drill instructer there so we could get a taste of how they ream people. the whole day was a rather enlightening experience.

my brother once told me that cussing and swearing is no more than a way of showing your ignorance and lack of imagination and intelligence. i never really understood him at the time. to be honest, sometimes hearing someone cuss at a certain time or after something happens can be extremely hilarious. (you all know its true...don't be givin your compy a death glare or something...) but today it really clicked with me what he meant when my bro told me that. the vast majority of the people there swore quite fluently. and frequnetly. if they couldn't come up with a word for a noun or and adjective, or some other phrase, they would just inject a cuss word. at first i didn't really notice it, but as the day wore on, it became more evident. i started to see just how dumb it can make you look. and how pathetically stupid it can make you sound. so here is my challenge (mainly to myself, but you are welcome to take it for yourself): whenever i get the ruge to mutter a cuss word, or even a "christian cuss word" (whatever that is supposed to be) or a "four letter word" (as a lot of us fcs goers have been told we are not allowed to use anymore, which is quite an order, seeing as there are a lot of four letter words), don't. stop. try to think of something else to say. something witty, something funny, something random...just soemthing other than the word that is running through you mind. it will make you sound smarter, less vulgar, and it might even improve your image in someone's eyes. just try it.

wow...that was kewl

2006-04-04T21:18:00.000-04:00

whilst i was workin this evening, i had the oppurtunity to take a few short breaks and sit on the grass. i don't know why, but i miss seeing the green grass. especially when it starts to grow and then you cut it. it always makes our yard look so much better. while i was sitting there, i smelled something interesting. so i started lookin around. i found some mint growing by the fence. it smelled really good. so i crushed some up with my foot, and the wind blew the scent around. and i felt very calm and peaceful...yeah, i know what you're all thinking..."yoshi has been smoking again or something" no i haven't. i guess i'm jsut ready for spring.

i also sat and looked up at the moon. it was like a perfect half moon, and it was really clear out so i could look straight up and see it perfectly. it was just weird to look up at it and try to comprehend how far away it was. it was kewl. i'm glad we have a moon. i like monns....hehehehe.

daylight savings time...is a bad word!

2006-04-03T21:09:00.000-04:00

i'm not sure which bad word, but its one of them. it has completely thrown off my mental clock. and it didn't start getting dark till about 8:30...that is too weird. and this morning it was still dark on the way to prison...i mean school. not to mention for some strange reason we had dinner at 4:45 tonight. my stomach is going crazy about that one...i'm starving. but i think i will live....somehow.

desset pizza

2006-03-30T22:29:00.000-05:00

Dessert pizza is of the devil!

ahhh....the memories

2006-03-29T21:32:00.000-05:00

this picture was from one of the more fun times i've had with junior highers. they had an outing and they were supposed to find people in the mall that were dressed up, and the leaders asked the senior highers if we would come and dress up. so i thought what the heck? why not? and i got with alex and we dressed up like goths and walked around the mall and scared the peepee out of little small children and their paraniod mothers. it was very fun. i want to do it again. so if you think you would like to do this, lemme know.

scorpions

2006-03-23T22:59:00.000-05:00

for some reason recently, i have come up with this like of scorpions. they are kewl. and they are really interesting creatures, especially historically. in greek mythology, they stood for military readiness and alertness. it was a sign of a great warrior. just thought i'd let ya'll know. i like scorpions. maybe i'll get reincarnated as one someday...that would be kewl.

global warmin is real, i swear

2006-03-21T22:13:00.000-05:00

i'm not kiddin, that whole global warming thing is pretty crazy. i mean, when it snows for half a day at the end of marhc, there is something wrong. especially when the world is supposed to be be getting warmer. to be honest, i wouldn't mind a little global warmin...i want my tan back. and my long shaggy hair, and sideburns.....i miss summer. and swimming. and hanging out at night and the sun goin down around 8-9. and all the stars....
i want this year to be over so bad. summer is like a symbol of freedom. and i can't wait to get it.

this picture is not of the recent snowfall we recieved. it was just one of the pics i already had on file.

product warnings...(some people are really stupid)

2006-03-20T11:02:00.000-05:00

ON TESCO'S TIRIMISU DESERT - Do not turn upside down. (Printed on the bottom of the box.)
ON MARKS & SPENCER BREAD PUDDING - Product will be hot after heating
ON PACKAGING FOR A ROWENTA IRON - Do not Iron clothes on body
ON BOOTS CHILDRENS COUGH MEDICINE - Do not drive car or operate machinery
ON NYTOL (A SLEEP AID) - Warning: may cause drowsiness
ON A KOREAN KITCHEN KNIFE - Warning keep out of children
ON A STRING OF CHINESE MADE CHRISTMAS LIGHTS - For indoor or outdoor use only. ON A JAPANESE FOOD PROCESSOR - Not to be used for the other use
ON SAINSBURY'S PEANUTS - Warning: contains nuts
ON AN AMERICAN AIRLINES PACKET OF NUTS - Instructions: open packet, eat nuts.
ON A SWEDISH CHAINSAW - Do not attempt to stop chain with your hands
ON A PACKET OF SUNMAID RAISINS - Why not try tossing over your favourite breakfast cereal?
ON A SUPERMAN CONSTUME - This suit does not enable the wearer to fly
ON A STEERING-LOCK (bar-like anti-theft device to prevent moving steering wheel) - Caution, remove before driving car
ON A WINDSHIELD SUNSHADE - Remove before driving car.
ON A BOX CONTAINING A SHOWER CAP (in a five-star hotel at Eliat, Red Sea, Israel) - Nylon shower cap. Fits one head.
ON A NEW ZEALAND CIVIL DEFENCE POSTER exhibited around Christchurch: In event of a Tidal Wave, don't go down and stand on the beach to watch it come in.

uhg....

2006-03-15T22:05:00.000-05:00

if i posted now, i don't think i would say anything worth you all reading...

oh. i'll say this: if you ever have a kid, and it is a whining screaming little brat, i will personally come and smack your child into shape for you.

there are already enough of them in this world.

where the streets have no names - U2

2006-03-14T22:19:00.000-05:00

I want to run
I want to hide
I want to tear down the walls
That hold me inside
I want to reach out
And touch the flame
Where the streets have no name
I want to feel sunlight on my face
I see the dust cloud disappear
Without a trace
I want to take shelter from the poison rain
Where the streets have no name
Where the streets have no name
Where the streets have no name
We're still building
Then burning down love
Burning down love
And when I go there
I go there with you
It's all I can do
The city's aflood
And our love turns to rust
We're beaten and blown by the wind
Trampled in dust
I'll show you a place
High on a desert plain
Where the streets have no name
Where the streets have no name
Where the streets have no name
We're still building
Then burning down love
Burning down love
And when I go there
I go there with you
It's all I can do
Our love turns to rust
We're beaten and blown by the wind
Blown by the wind
Oh, and I see love
See our love turn to rust
We're beaten and blown by the wind
Blown by the wind
Oh, when I go there
I go there with you
It's all I can do

enough is enough - i'm starting to get mad

2006-03-13T21:32:00.000-05:00

no, this post is not about school, or people or senoritis. its about email. and myspace. and facebook. and just about every site you go to. i am getting sick of all this bs about "find your true love" and the "prefect person" yada yada yada. and they always have these girls trying to look like porn stars. its so stupid. these people have no clue about what love is.
Love has nothing to do with a sexy person. it has nothing to do with how much you want someone. it has nothing to do with compatability. it has nothing to do with "naughty or nice" (this one really ticks me off - it is so stupid). love has nothing to do with finding the one.
love is a choice. it is a way of living. it is the parents who spanks their child for doing the wrong thing so that they can instill a biblical view of life. it is the parent who sometimes lets a teen leard the hard way when that teen won't listen anymore. it is a mother getting up in the middle of the night to check on a sick child. it is a dad coming home from work early to spend time with his wife and kids. it is a freind who takes the keys from a drunken friend....
....its is letting people who hate you drive nails through your hands and let you die on a cross. it is rising again and sending a special tool to those who follow you so that they may learn and grow in you....
love is not a feeling. love is, was, and always will be...

...the Son of God.

Finally!

2006-03-12T19:42:00.000-05:00

i was able to open my window today! for some reason that just makes me feel better. i've been wanting it to warm up and start turning into spring and summer and it finally is. and then when i was playing airsoft with jordan and jared, we went outside. it was awesome. i think i might be able to make it through the end of the year if we continue having weather like this.

solitare vs. solitary

2006-03-09T22:25:00.000-05:00

i finally got some games on my palm pilot. i had some before, but then it died and i lost everything. so i'm not gonna let that happen again. but needless to say, i got solitare. and i have perfected a mean game at it, might i add. and its all thanx to hanny the squeeker. she got me started into the game a few months back. so her ya go....this post is dedicated to you.
and on a different note, my parents have left me all alone at home for the evening. its kinda weird...i got a bit freaked out. i was in the basement playing nfl blitz and i heard the dog moving around...except it didn't sound like her at all. i don't know what she was doing, but it sounded like someone rearranging the furniture. so i came up and checked on her..and she just laid on the floor and whined at me...stupid dog. i told her she could come downstairs and hang with me, and eventually she did. (she's kinda slow in the head) but then she went back upstairs and whined some more. whatever. i hope my parents enjoy themselves. i'm glad they are doing this - they have been so busy that they never get time to spend with each other, and i admit that i'm not always the most romantic person for them to hang with. so yay for them. and may they have many happy returns.

wed nights and little kids

2006-03-08T21:51:00.000-05:00

.....little kids. they have so much energy. and it makes me wonder - was i that hyper? i wouldn't be suprised. they either wanted me to throw them up in the air, or spin them around. and as soon as i'd put one down, there would be 2 more that wanted to do it. and they always wanted to go higher or faster. but eventually they had to go home. i like working with them. i've learned a lot from teaching them. and they like me too.
today, i went to play halo at a friends house after school. and no matter how many times i play, i still come to the same conclusion: it isn't worth what people put into it. it can completely change people (including me) so much. it means way to much to a lot of guys. its really quite pathetic. i'm glad i don't have an xbox. i don't think it would help me at all. and besides...i still have tony hawks and nfl blitz. and othere stuff. like family, and a job, and devotions...i wonder how much time is spent playing games vs. reading the word. i know it is way out of proportion for me...and all i have is a n64. i'm not trying to judge them, but i'm just wondering... anyway, some of the actions seemed rather childish, including some of what i did. i think we would all be better off without such things.

the power of our words...and our prayers

2006-03-05T21:46:00.000-05:00

well, many people have noticed that someone has been leaving comments as an "anonymous" person. and many of you have also noticed that the comments being left by this person are completely uncalled for, immature, obnoxious, and totally pointless other than to perhaps make some of us mad. so this post has 2 messages:
1 - to the "anonymous" poster - whoever you are, i have been praying for you. seriously. something must be going on in your life that bothers and upsets you so much that you try to make others around you upset. i can't imagine what it is since i don't know who you are, but i really do care. however, they was you are leaving comments is wrong. there is no need to be so derogatory. and the random swearing and crude comments that you have made only make you seem very much like the idiotic fool and the scoffer that are spoken of in Proverbs. it makes me sad to realize that the more you do this, the more punishment and unhappiness you heap upon yourself. so please stop. not only for our sake, but for yours as well.
2 - for the rest of us - why do people do things like that? what happens to them to make them so spiteful toward the rest of us? i think part of it may be how we treat these people. whoever this person is knows my name. maybe i did something to them that was ungodly. maybe they just don't like me. i don't know for sure. but i think we can all learn something from this. this person is hurting and they want to make others hurt. what can we do? we can love those around us and try to show them that there is a way to be loved in a way that a human cannot comprehend. so the next time that annoying person in your life says or does whatever it is that sets you off, pray for them instead of mockin them. and myabe say something kind to them. you never know how much a little thing can mean to someone else.

the ride of your life

2006-03-04T21:41:00.000-05:00

no, this isn't about my bike, or a car i wrecked, or a roller coaster, or anything else crazy like that. its about life and what we experience...and things we hardly ever experience.
there is something about life. it can't be expressed with words. it can only be felt. it is a power, a being inside that moves within. when it is stirred, it can take over you completely. it can change your mind even though it has been set a certian way for as long as you can remember. it can make you turn over control against your will. it lures you into your own mind to search and wander. it makes us realize all of the rubbish in our lives...and helps convince us to lay it at the foot of the cross and move on. it shows us that there is more to life then our own wants and desires, and that many times our wants and desires are what causes us to get pulled down. if we just let them go, things will be so much simpler.
but so many times we have the wrong view of letting go. we view it as just not caring or forgetting. but it is so much more at that. we have to litterally take it to God and tell him, "God, this is not my own. it is Your life that You created. You know exactly what i need to do, but i can't do it on my own. i need Your help, Your power. i need your Holy Spirit to give me the strength to put this behind me and move on with my life." and then, and only then, will your burden be lifted, the rubbish erased from your life. and God will take you up in His everloving arms, and give you......

......the ride of your life.

Tony Hawks Pro Skater

2006-03-02T21:47:00.000-05:00

this is one of my favorite games of all times...on the awesomest game system of all time. if i could be a profesional in any sport, i think i'd probly have to pick skateboarding. now, some of you might be thinkin, yeah right. you've never skated in your life. and that is where you go wrong. i actually used to be a fairly decent skater (for a person in my age group). before my family moved to the blueberry farm, we lived in dayton. my house was only one house away from dayton elementary. i would skate there all the time...i loved it. and right when i started to learn soem sweet moves...we moved. i haven't skated since then. i took the wheels off of my board and tried to make a jerry-rigged snowboard that i could use and get pulled by the tractor...it didn't work. but anyway, i've always wished i could have reached my full potential as a skater...maybe when i'm in college. its not like i'll be studying or anything....

53 days....

2006-03-01T14:33:00.000-05:00

....til its all mine......it is so stinkin hard to focus in school. its all i can think about. 53 days seems like such a long time.....waaaaaaahhh!

just say something

2006-02-27T22:20:00.000-05:00

last night i watched a movie called "gigot" with my parents. to be honest, the only reason i watched it was to spend time with them. i was in no way interested in the movie at all, even though it was a "classic favorite" of my dads. the movie is about a slighty mentally impaired man who is also mute (he can't talk). he is a very sweet and kind man. he even spends his wages to buy broken cookies to give to the neighborhood dogs. one night, after being made fun of again (which is all the people do to him - no one shows him any kindness)he sees a little girl standing alone in a dark doorway. as he walks over to her, she runs to the next doorway to a drunk woman laying on the ground. he helps them up and takes them back to his little appartment. he shows them great generosity and kindness. later that day, he takes the little girl along for his daily walk around town. he stops in front of a catholic church to rest and give some more cookies to the dogs that are following him. when he looks back, the little girl is gone. he runs into the church and finds her playin in the holy water. he loving shows her what the water is for and then takes her to the front of the church. when they get there, the little girl tugs on his sleeve and points to a crucifix hanging on the wall. "who is that man?" she asks him. when he realizes who she is askin about, his eyes light up. but he can't talk. so he tries pointing to another statue of the virgin mary holding baby Jesus. but she doesn't understand. he tries pointing at another statue and making gestures, but she still doesn't understand. you can see the frustration and earnestness on his face as he tries to figure out how he can tell this little girl about who God is. but as he realizes once agian that he cannot talk, his face is covered with anger. he stares at the crucifix with hatred and opens his mouth to utter a silent scream as he shakes his fist at the Man on the cross. then he starts beating himself with his fists on the head and in the face....
then the little girl screams his name..."GIGOT!!!" he stops and slowly looks at her...there is concern in her eyes as she stares up at him. she takes his hand, smiles, crosses herself, blows a kiss to the cross, and tugs at his hang, leading him away.
for some reason, i haven't been able to get that scene out of my head. and here is why: so many times, we have the oppurtunity to tell others about Christ and what He has done for us, and yet we don't and think nothing of it. yet here is a man who cannot speak who is so passionate about telling a little girl about what Jesus did for us that he starts to beat himself when he realizes he can't. why don't we have that passion? why do we not have that desperation in our eyes when we realize that someone does not understand that Jesus is the only way?

and why is there always a still small voice that calls us back from our endless tirades or downward spirals of self-hatred, the voice that smiles at us, takes our hand, and helps us to realize that although we fail, life goes on and we have another chance?

Pastor King

2006-02-23T11:19:00.000-05:00

"you sick of living, or you just wanna die young?"
that's one of my favorite quote by that blessed man. he's one of the few teachers that i've never had a beef with. and i don't think it is even possible. he is such a sweet guy that everybody has to love him. i don't know how he does it, but he is the only teacher who can say the same thing that the other teachers say, yet get it to actually sink in. maybe i'm just partial to him, but i don't care. he is so friendly, and he always cares what's goin on in your life no matter what is goin on in his own life. he is always willing to give advice, but he always takes it back to the Bible and what God thinks about the issue. but i the thing i like the most about him is his grasp on reality. he knows what we think about the rules and how we will respond to them. he also knows that some of the rules are needless. becuase of this, he doesn't get upset about stupid things. instead he encourages us to grow in the areas that are truley important. and he always does it with a smile and an amiable attitude. he doesn't view himself as an authority over us. he becomes a friend and a mentor to us. i will deffinately miss him next year.

Hooray for Cheney!!!

2006-02-20T21:23:00.000-05:00

"And in the recent days since Vice-President Dick Cheney shot Harry Wellington in a shooting accident, his approval rating has gone up to 92%. I mean, come on...who doesn't like a guy will shoot a laywer?"

Ecclesiastes 11:9

2006-02-17T12:01:00.000-05:00

Rejoice, O young man, in your youth,

And let your heart cheer you in the days of your youth;

Walk in the ways of your heart,

And in the sight of your eyes;

But know that for all these,

God will bring you into judgement.

if that isn't a convincing warning to keep it on the straight and narrow, then something has to be wrong...

this just don't make no sense....

2006-02-10T18:21:00.000-05:00

why do drive-up atms have brail on them?

2006-02-02T22:46:00.000-05:00

ya know, so many times we don't even think about our daily habits. our comments here and there, how we respond in situations...in light of all that, i'd like to direct your attention to a recent post put up by a friend of mine. you can either click on the link that says "Nate" or click http://newfocus.blogspot.com if you are too lazy to move the mouse over to my links. i challenge you to think about this...it really made me think.

2006-02-01T11:20:00.000-05:00

If i lived back in the day, this is what i'd be like.

guess what i figured out?

2006-01-29T21:31:00.000-05:00

i can gurgle pudding...and gleek it too.....in my own special way.

aaahhh, the joys of lunch time that don't last....

NFL or NBA????

2006-01-28T14:27:00.000-05:00

36 have been accused of spousal abuse
7 have been arrested for fraud
19 have been accused of writing bad checks
117 have directly or indirectly bankrupted at least 2 businesses
3 have done time for assault
71, repeat 71 cannot get a credit card due to bad credit
14 have been arrested on drug-related charges
8 have been arrested for shoplifting
21 currently are defendants in lawsuits. and
84 have been arrested for drunk drivingin the last year

Can you guess which organization this is?

Give up yet? . . . Scroll down, citizen!

It's the 535 members of the United States Congress. The same group of Idiots that crank out hundreds of new laws each year designed to keep the rest of us in line.

who am i?

2006-01-24T14:47:00.000-05:00

jared's recent post about his personality has spiked my interest in what i am viewed as.

"i think you're kinda like that bad guy who turns out to be good in the end...." - a little kid said this to me when i asked him.

anyway, leave your thoughts, comments, insight, blah blah blah.....

everybody is sick

2006-01-20T19:50:00.000-05:00

it seems like no matter were you go, everybody is sick. its kinda saddening. it seems like some people will never be able to get caught up because they have missed so much already.
i was kinda happy though cause i haven't gotten sick in a while. its kinda nice to be healthy. but that kinda changed last night. i suddenly woke up and i couldn't breath at all. i was coughing like crazy but it wasn't doing anything. eventually i went to the bathroom cause i thought i was gonna puke....i did, for about 5min. after i got done, i went back to bed and everything slowly returned to normal. my stomache and chest still hurt from the whole purgin ordeal, but i think i'm all better. i hope so anyway...

to all of the colts fans....

2006-01-15T19:15:00.000-05:00

sorry, i hate to say it, but....

the colts got their butts handed to 'em by the stealers today. and payton..i still am not impressed at all. he had a few good ones, but whenever he was under pressure, it was over before it happened.

disclaimer - i think the colts are a good team, but they deffinately don't deserve all they hype they've been getting.

and i was right, all along....

2006-01-10T14:56:00.000-05:00

Most Annoying Stars
Hollywood star Tom Cruise has been voted the most annoying person of 2005, only a week after he was named most irritating in a British magazine poll.
Website AmIAnnoying.com compiles an annual chart from its thousands of listed celebrities and groups and found the majority of the site's 10 million voters couldn't stand Cruise, following his anti-drug stance and high-profile relationship with Katie Holmes.
The second most annoying person was Michael Jackson and socialite Paris Hilton came in at three.
The top 10 most annoying stars or group of 2005 are:
1. Tom Cruise2. Michael Jackson3. Paris Hilton4. Britney Spears5. Osama Bin Laden6. Al-Qaeda7. Dr. Phil McGraw8. Tara Reid9. Kobe Bryant10. Jessica Simpson
New mother Britney Spears and her husband Kevin Federline landed at number four and 22 respectively, while Jessica Simpson, her sister Ashlee and manager father Joe entered at 10, 14 and 26.
Last week, the "War Of The Worlds" star was voted most irritating by Empire magazine readers.
Last year Justin Timberlake, Spears and Jackson compiled the top three most annoying stars.

News Bulletin:

2006-01-05T14:45:00.000-05:00

The Pentagon announced today the formation of a new 500-man elite fighting unit called the U.S. REDNECK SPECIAL FORCES (USRSF). These Florida, Kentucky, West Virginia, Mississippi, Missouri, Arkansas, Alabama, Georgia, Texas, Tennessee and North & South Carolina boys will be dropped into Iraq and have been given only the following five facts about terrorists:

1. The season opened today.
2. There is no limit.
3. They taste just like chicken.
4. They don't like beer, pickups, country music or Jesus.
5. They are DIRECTLY RESPONSIBLE for the death of Dale Earnhardt.

This mess in Iraq should be over IN A WEEK.

what an idiot!!!

2006-01-03T14:12:00.000-05:00

A 19-year-old PETA staffer has legally changed his name to KentuckyFriedCruelty.com.
Chris Garnett, youth outreach coordinator for the People for the Ethical Treatment of Animals, said he changed his name in support of the group's anti-KFC campiagn.
"People don't believe me at first when I tell them my name, but it never fails to spark a discussion," Garnett, er, KentuckyFriedCruelty.com, siad in a statment. "many vow to boycott KFC after i explain the company's indifferance to cruelty to animals."

and they wonder why people don't take them seriously....

to all of our troops out there...

2005-12-24T22:07:00.000-05:00

i can't imagine what it must be like to be halfway across the world and so far away from your families and friends on christmas eve. the only thing i can say is that i hope santa brings you lots of nice toys so you can kick some more terrorist butt. as we all sit at home tomorrow, i hope that none of us will forget the sacrifice you all are making to provide freedom for people in a country so far away. another gift i wish for you - the press would eat it and go to heck, or start reporting the truth about what you people are doing over there. your sacrifice is the best gift to others that you can give. may we give our grattitude and support back to you.

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!!!!

a bit of advice....

2005-12-23T20:22:00.000-05:00

for those of you who want to or are thinking of seeing "40 year old virgin", don't. the 15 minutes of it that i saw were more perverted and crass (not to mention crude and vulgar) than any movie i have ever seen. there is simply no need to watch anything like that, and there is deffinitaly no need for something like that to be produced and publicized. i was really quite dissapointed in it. and the fact that it is getting so much publicity as being a "hilarious and funny movie" i think we should just shoot the press and destroy them all.